Pretty much as soon as I announced that I was starting to blog again regularly, I was bored with it. This is why I shouldn't announce things. It's that knock on wood, don't say it or it won't happen jinxy thing. Except with really fickle inspiration mojo. However, I have been playing around with podcasting, nothing shareable yet but something may be coming at you soon. In the meantime here we are...Read More
...The sheer fact that my son having cancer does not inherently mean that I'm strong. It means I am comfortable wearing slippers at the hospital and my mental health is a fun adventure involving lots of therapy now, but not strong....Read More
Today is the anniversary of my son being diagnosed with cancer (pictured above at 5 weeks old). It always brings up weird emotions. I hate to give that day such significance.
I don't want to dwell and mourn the bad stuff, but celebrate the good stuff that comes out of the bad, but I've had to written it on so many medical histories it's burned into my brain. But what's interesting to me is how it affects each of us momcology mom's in different ways, long after the fact, that we'd never expect... for me, especially this year, the time between my son's birthday and this anniversary is borderline painful for me.Read More
I survived my first week of college!
...Well, first week of college in a decade. I got out the five star notebooks, wrote the papers, lost my parking pass, and even met with fellow students for a group project meeting. I am officially a student.
And saying that makes me feel both excited and accomplished, and like I’m going to have a panic attack.Read More
I say I feel a lot these days. Because “I feel” is both a respect word and a reality check. My feelings are legitimate. It's my reality, it's what I am going through at that moment… my feelings are what form who I am. That deserves an amazing amount of respect. But my feelings too are also not what is happening in the rest of the world. They are my reality but not the reality.Read More
On October 21st, Jason Kenneth Markley died suddenly. He left behind his wife Pamela, and three children. On October 24th, Pamela posted the following on her Facebook:
"So... a few requests in the coming days/weeks/months as you are around my kids. Please share this if you're local to me and people you know might be around my children.Read More
I’m insecure. I've written a series of blog posts and I’ve noticed a theme: Each one in using disclaimers, or some sort of random insecure ramble about a flaw I'm embarrassed about.
There was something about being open with your mess but there is something else about nervously writing it because you rather say it to deflect people's judgement. Lately I have been doing the latter.Read More
I am in the middle full blown vulnerability hangover. Yes, vulnerability hangover is a thing and it’s very real.Read More